One could say it was the plan for my life, just in the same respect that I did not choose a path to become an artist the path chose me, and there was no getting off this path. So one could also say that my soul also created this path.
I continue to paint the Universe because there is a force greater than me compelling me to. I am not able to stop painting the Universe. I am utterly infatuated with it to the degree that it is a very romantic, passionate relationship we share. And really the only moments during my life where everything feels completely normal and at peace is while I am painting a beautiful galaxy, |
I have tried many times to stop painting, especially the Universe. Especially during times of hardships and great adversity that I’ve faced when I was feeling particularly demotivated. Yet I am still driven to create. Nothing else appeals to me. To do anything else either as a profession or for fun does not appeal to me. I don’t have many other hobbies because the Universe is so mesmerising to me that to do anything else only makes me think of the Universe more. It is my love, my joy, my #1 thrill in life. I continue to create more of them, because every time I finish one I am filled with a great void and a sense of loss and it is not filled until I begin to embark on a new one, only then life can resume as normal.
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